11/25: First Blog Post

( I wrote all of this like 4 days before while very high.) Congrats, you found the first actual blog entry of mine! I wanted to take some time and reflect on the process of coding this cite, my motivations for my website and just some general thoughts I feel the need to document.

I think I'm on day 8 or 9 of learning HTML/CSS and although it's been confusing at times, its a very satisfying process to gain a new skill. Watching my idea of a cutie little b&w website come into fruition has been fun and Ive dedicated a lot of time just to make this rinky dinky motherfucker function basically. I have future ideas for layouts, widgets to add, etc but for now, I'm more than happy to have a functional website I can add blog posts to (like this one) or spread more knowledge on how insanely easy it is to grow weed. Honestly the most difficult process has been fixing bugs that happen when I transfer my code from brackets to neocities, but its been enjoyable going line through line to figure out whats wrong. Building this skill feels like giving a younger version of me something I didn't have either, seeing as I always found web design/coding/UI design interesting but didn't have the resources in order to explore that

I hope that I can continue to use this site as a more thorough way of self expression on the internet (as opposed to social media, which i barely use now) as well as breaking away from my engagement being used as data and sold off. i've always been turn off of how social media has been used, it feels very vanity driven and i dont particuarly enjoy the rat race of trends that now form as well as the curration of image for someone else. like if someone wans to talk to me, congradulations they probably can reach out and if not its for a reaasoonnn. this website can server as a place that i have full creative reign over, free from judgement, allowed to write about what i want without the judgement of my panopticon that is my social situation. i thinkk i feel a lot of shame and judgement arround my actual interests due to people making it pretty clear to me that they view me as a little off. having a space where gimp can gimp will be good for me.

i think im gonna keep this one pretty short just because its like a more advance test of the other blogpost. hopefully the next one will be a little less rambly.